Life For Rent

Tick Tick Tick Boom!

Merry Meet!!

Like what Fresh Prince raps, the time is ticking. The clock is moving. The digits are down to 2. What is ticking? The ORD counter is counting down to freedom!

Spent some time planning my leaves today. Schemed a little plot to get as little crap I can get before I go.. heh heh and taught some of my junior colleagues what to do when it is their turn.

It was quite a boring day. I don’t know, guess I was just sleepy. But I had sniffy with me. All day long. Who is sniffy? Ah stay tuned….:P

Another batch of trainees are gonna pass out of their course, while another one are set to come in next week. Should be a fairly easy week to get past. However it is time to get my hands on studies and all.

Calling all accounting and SQL experts! I need heeeeeeeeeeeeelp!!

Speaking of help. I watched Hitch over the weekend at the IMAX theatre that has since ceased operations and is now being used for the usual film screenings. GV Grand Hall 1. If your film is being screened there, my advice is to take the seats in the middle, not at the sides.

Strangely I do remember watching the Hitch trailers and I remember this scene in a nightclub where a guy offers a drink or something and commented on something a lady was drinking. A comment that she took immediate offense to. Hitch comes along and offers the perfect cure for it. I didn’t see this part in the film? What happened?

It is a light hearted show which is graded at ‘B’ by me. ie, watch it sometime soon. A dream is never too big isn’t it? With a little help of course. In the form of hitch.

I don’t know what else to watch. A series of unfortunate events sounds fun but I don’t know if I should watch it. Is it computer graphics generated or something? How bout boogyman? I think Howling moving castle is really nice. At least 2 fellas I know recommended it really strongly…but At Last!… Never mind I shall put it behind me…:)

Recommendations, I need recommendations man..before I sit down and mug. And hopefully finish my last arrow throughout my NSF life. An arrow that sends me to the army pride day come April.

It is time to go but not before I share a couple shots, though they look kinda weird to me. Taken at ECP during my trainee’s cohesion day.

Cheers!

The end of a thursday..and dinner tonight was almost switched to ‘zi cha’ at 6th avenue. But thanks to the rain, we went back to our original plans. At scott’s pasta fresca (is that how it is spelt?)

Anyway we were chatting about relationships..I won’t go into details cuz its quite private and I don’t wanna blog on someone else’s life.

I found myself understanding the issues cuz a lot of the nonsense, I have been through and I understand how my buddy thinks as well.

It seems lots of problems stem from insecurities. When someone is insecure, the person behaves weirdly. To an outsider, it is almost abnormal. I can FULLY understand that cuz that’s what I have been feeling being in a relationship. There are lots of reasons. Sometimes one party feels the other is too good for him or her. The person loves the other party, a whole lot, yet feel inferior. That is an insecurity. And is being displayed through many ways.

Solve the insecurities, and you solve a whole bag of underlying problems as well. But I am glad Colin’s relationship will probably turn out alright. Two very determined individuals. I know how Colin thinks, and yes I think he and his girl is made for one another. It takes a little bit of fine tuning and alteration. With some time.

I realised a lot of things today bout myself. Including this thought. How many of you have the habit of doing verbal diarrhoea on potential dates? Like you tell the person, “I am tempremental, bad tempered, don’t like this and don’t like that”. Basically list all your flaws. I do. Why do we do that? Perhaps, that is our way of entering a relationship guilt free. It is like a disclaimer.

“See I already told you all that before, you chose to go out with me. So why complain now?”

Just a thought. Nothing more to it. Definitely a fruitful dinner. Now I wonder if I should out to someone Colin and I know. We don’t meet all the time in fact the last time I saw her was like in Sydney, 2002? I think? I don’t get to meet my own friends very often as you see. And she said I lost a lot of weight. hah hah from that time till now yes. But in the last year I think I gained quite a bit. And yeh, I don’t see them often but we remain close at heart. And I really want her to join the list of ‘close friends’. And the only way, is to know ‘about me’. For those who care and ask, I would tell. I was gonna tell her but she didn’t reply to an earlier sms. Oh well. See when the next opportunity arises.

Thank you Colin and all. Hopefully the dinner had helped in more ways than one. And I love the cozze linguini! The white wine sauce goes so well with the mussels. All cheesy and buttery. A lil salty but it adds quite a bit of flavour to the mussels..Gonna have it someday again.

Time to pen off. East coast park here i come….

-The Mood Of The Moment-

It is best described in the bridge and chorus of a song :

My life got cold
it happened many
years ago
when summer slipped away
So chill now, whoa
we’ve aotten many
years to go
so take it day by day

And on the go
i lost my soul
to some forgotten dream
And how was
i supposed to know
it wasn’t what it seemed
And even though
the last hello
has left me on the floor
i dont believe in
Romeos and Heroes any more

–

The last line holds particular truth to how I feel.

I couldn’t do my lessons well last night. Fatique..major fatique yet when you can’t sleep. Tired beyond the point of being tired. They call it insomia. I call it a blessing, cuz I don’t need as much sleep anymore it seems.

I didn’t feel like going to work so I took the day’s off and slept till past 12. Actually I planned this day off a few days ago. I was going to buy something for someone.. but now when I think of it, it is probably not going to be appreciated. What’s more I don’t know if he has already gotten one anyway..

My best friend colin is back for another month and it was a pleasant surprise..and we’re going to dinner later. As much as I don’t think I can eat, I badly needed some good company. Think we’ll head to town for some dinner. Tomorrow it’s gonna be an east coast park day with my trainees. Bo bian no other instructors from my platoon is going so I go loh..

I don’t know what’s in store for the weekend and I don’t dare think about it either. I am thinking of a little get away. A short one. The last one I did was with a friend to tioman. So quiet, so serene, unlike me. And so boring, like me. But I liked it. Anyone has any suggestions or wanna join me?

Too cooped up. For too long..

I have learnt a lot of things this past week. More than I ever should. But I’m not penning it down for those were personal thoughts. But for those who care, I thought I’d fill in a lil on what’s going on. The countdown timer at the top is nearing 2 digits…or has it already? Yippie yai yay!

This is for my sista rach..

Sorry girl. Perhaps the 2 videos I intended to produce and edit, would never be done. One of it isn’t even recorded and perhaps, no chance for it to be as well.

Lim Lee and sista hope you both are doing well out there. Someday I will pay you a visit once again..

Time to report for duty..take care all.

Was reading some facts about dreaming, from howstuffworks.com. The info is also extracted from there. It said that if you are snoring, you aren’t dreaming. Interesting.

Dreams interpretations? Try these. I have had personal experience with one theme here. Anyone wanna guess?

-Being naked in public-
Most of us have had the dream at some point that we’re at school, work or some social event, and we suddenly realize we forgot to put on clothes! Experts say this means:
-We’re trying to hide something (and without clothes we have a hard time doing that).
-We’re not prepared for something, like a presentation or test (and now everyone is going to know — we’re exposed!).

if we’re naked but no one notices, then the interpretation is that whatever we’re afraid of is unfounded. If we don’t care that we’re naked, the interpretation is that we’re comfortable with who we are.

-Falling-
You’re falling, falling, falling… and then you wake up. This is a very common dream and is said to symbolize insecurities and anxiety. Something in your life is essentially out of control and there is nothing you can do to stop it. Another interpretation is that you have a sense of failure about something. Maybe you’re not doing well in school or at work and are afraid you’re going to be fired or expelled. Again, you feel that you can’t control the situation.

-Being chased-
The ever-popular chase dream can be extremely frightening. What it usually symbolizes is that you’re running away from your problems. What that problem is depends on who is chasing you. It may be a problem at work, or it may be something about yourself that you know is destructive. For example, you may be drinking too much, and your dream may be telling you that your drinking is becoming a real problem.

-Taking an exam (or forgetting that you have one)-
This is another very common dream. You suddenly realize you are supposed to be taking an exam at that very moment. You might be running through the hallways and can’t find the classroom. This type of dream can have several variations that have similar meanings. (Maybe your pen won’t write, so you can’t finish writing your answers.) What experts say this may mean is that you’re being scrutinized about something or feel you’re being tested — maybe you’re facing a challenge you don’t think you’re up to. You don’t feel prepared or able to hold up to the scrutiny. It may also mean there is something you’ve neglected that you know needs your attention.

-Flying-
Many flying dreams are the result of lucid dreaming. Not all flying dreams are, however. Typically, dreaming that you are flying means you are on top of things. You are in control of the things that matter to you. Or, maybe you’ve just gained a new perspective on things. It may also mean you are strong willed and feel like no one and nothing can defeat you. If you are having problems maintaining your flight, someone or something may be standing in the way of you having control. If you are afraid while flying, you may have challenges that you don’t feel up to.

-Running, but going nowhere-
This theme can also be part of the chasing dream. You’re trying to run, but either your legs won’t move or you simply aren’t going anywhere — as if you were on a treadmill. According to some, this dream means you have too much on your plate. You’re trying to do too many things at once and can’t catch up or ever get ahead.

-Your teeth falling out-
Many people have dreams that they lose all of their teeth. In this dream, they may feel something strange in their mouth and then spit teeth into their hand, eventually losing all of their teeth. According to some, our teeth are related to our sense of power and our ability to communicate. Losing our teeth not only makes us embarrassed by our appearance, which hinders our communications, but it also lessens our power because we may not speak our minds. It’s also associated with feelings about our appearance.

Hmm ok I resisted posting this link up which was one of the reasons that affected me big time over the past weekend.

Go to the link and watch the footage ONLY if you can handle animal cruelty…

http://hk.geocities.com/blood1213/fur.html

I sense a lot of changes that are about to happen…We’ll see how things go..Gotta do duty tomorrow..talk to you peeps laterz..

Peace, always.

I don’t like what’s happening in camp. Maybe it is the ORD attitude/mood. Maybe it is not.

Been pretty lethargic of late. Don’t know why. Maybe it is an ‘off season’ for me.Hardly any mood for anything. Hardly anything around me helps. A swollen foot from a bad insect bite didn’t help either.

Lots of shows to watch. But perhaps one of which I won’t be watching with my dear. Lots of people jioing me for diff shows, which one should I pick?

You know what’s in my head? Think bout this. If you really want something bad enough, you’ll pay the price for it. Agree? What is $8.50? It is only when you feel it isn’t worth the price, that you won’t forfeit the cost of something already purchased. It seems lots of times I gotta count and calculate everything. I’m turning calculative. And I don’t like it.

A not so good couple weeks. Maybe when my new trainees come in they will distract me for a while. As I prepare to clear some leave to take my exams before the counter at the top of the page here hits 2 digits. Soon it would be 1 digit..then..ORD loh..

Here’s a pic to share anyway for the record. Taken at NTU for the cheerobics heats. Perhaps its the way it was organised, it was rather boring. Maybe there shouldn’t have been a heats in the first place, since every team went into the finals.

I wonder if I shd even go for the finals now. Let’s see if kenneth goes. Meantime as I nurse my poor foot, hope you folks had a good one.