Life For Rent

I met someone on the streets today. Coincidentally. A person with the bf I presume. It sorta reminded me of how one person took away the friendship of two people singlehandedly. Did it work? I don’t know. I just let it be, for it exposed the vulnerability of the friendship. As a technical person who searches for vulnerabilities in computer systems, this isn’t new to me.

If this is destiny, that two people cannot be friends, then let it be. For one, I’m not going to pay a dime for rubbish. Would you?

I sorta removed everything that will remind me of him. I just hope I don’t bump into him no more. It’ll not stir up any ill feelings between me and him. It will just remind me of the resentment of my partner potentially killing off people around me one by one. For one, marcus will be the first, and the only one I will allow to be sacrified. Just sitting by not saying a thing letting things be. It will be the only time.

I met berdie at the gym. Very cool gym. If Shah works there, you’d bet I would consider signing up as a member. Pretty cool. Kinda cruisy but aint half as bad as the other public gyms I reckon. Poor berdie. Sigh. I feel for him. Maybe he’d say I know him better than ed. Ah well.

Hey here’s a question. What’s the king of all sandwiches? It is the smoked salmon with ham sandwich. Urgh…I had a bite or two of the ham crepe that was filled with smoked salmon. Ever see the difference between a raw and fresh salmon used in sashimi and one that’s smoked? The flavours at both ends are simply orgasmic! Heck it even beat the pork knuckle I was eating.

I usually have my beer at marche. And I did tonight as well. But as time went by, as I sipped my beer, I suddenly have the urge to get drunk. Again. I don’t know why. I don’t hold my drinks well cuz I don’t really drink. It doesn’t make much to make me high but so far I have never been drunk.

The clock seems to be ticking backwards….

It’s time to play the game.

I signed up for another specialist-professional certification from IPDC after attending the preview last night. Would be quite fun. I love studying what I enjoy. And data security is an area of expertise for me. As compared to maths! Accounting! *rolls eyes*

I was just complaining to my mom about the education system in the world. For those who know me, you would know I have always wanted to be a vet. Not a doctor for humans, but one for animals. I have no ethics when it comes to human to human, but animals are different to me. They can’t speak, they don’t chao keng, they can only tell you something is wrong with their eyes, the way they walk..etc. Too often pet owners bring in their sick pets when it is too late.

Anyway back to what I was talking about. It seems when someone scores very well for their Os, As, it automatically means they will be good doctors, vets, lawyers and what nots. Can you get into any of the above without EXCELLENT A level results? No. At least in oz, vet school and law school are the hardest to get into, at 98 percentile. That put it out of reach for many. But will these people who fulfil the criteria, automatically be good candicates in terms of attitude and aptitide? I don’t know. Every profession has their own black sheep. James Tan, that vet next to Mt Pleasant hospital (where I take my dog to now) is obvious to me at least, that he works not with his heart, but with the cash register.

Very good CCA and A level results can get you an SAF or president’s scholarship cause you are seen as smart with leadership potential (based on CCA perhaps?) and then you are inducted into being a regular and the future appointments of brigade commanders/chief of staff/chief of defence awaits you.

I honestly believe, there are many people who can be very good lawyers, doctors, vets out there. But they can’t due to their results. Yet there are many who are professionals, but quite frankly you’d feel they don’t deserve to be in it. I don’t know why the system is as such. There is at least one uni from down under that bases their induction of students for their medicine school, based partially on results, and on interviews. The pre requisites are more like, you need to have done this subject and that subject. And if you did not you can take up bridging modules. The interview counts for a large portion of the induction process, and they clearly stated they want students who would, will, and can be good doctors.

And that is where the phrase comes in…If the best can’t be achieved, go for second best. Life is such you don’t have and don’t get everything you want. We find options. Alternatives. While being envious of those who made it through. Respect as well. When you see a vet, you know they were very very good students…

Heck the vet my dog sees has an aussie accent already, very distinct. *L* For those who go to Mt Pleasant hospital, Dr Boon’s a good vet. I would recommend her.

There are fireworks going off at the esplanade on may day. Catch it if you can. I hear it won’t be as magnificent as those chinese new year fireworks but still it would be nice to take a look at what they have anyway.

Have a super duper chill out long weekend!

I watched Summer Storm today, at the recommendation of my friend Kenneth.

I thought it was a fabulous show. I went into the cinema skeptical. I initially found it very QAF. But as the story develop, you see multiple love triangles. Falling in love with your best friend. A straight, best friend. From another angle, another dude likes you, but you can’t give much. Eventually you did something stupid with your best friend. He gets mad at you. Very mad. The friendship was over. Literally. Now all you want is to be able to be friends with him still. To be ‘as we were last time’. Can the main lead, Tobi achieve that ultimately? To be treated a little more special than the rest, but undoubtly lesser than the friend’s (Achim) partner?

The scenes played in the film is very very real. I assume it happens in Germany. Heck it happens here and probably everywhere. It gives both queers and heterosexuals a chance to see things in a different light, and a little something closer to the struggles of a queer. It takes one to really feel for the characters especially if you have gone through similar. I walked out feeling quite good. That all of us have different struggles in life. And in love.

A film that is part of the international film festival. A film that i didn’t have to crack my head over unlike The Interpreter.

Please watch it. Graded A. It is RA though, so you gotta be 21 and above. In terms of nudity, hardly on the guys. Just one scene, side nudity. But you do get a couple breasts from girls. I suppose the RA is due to the theme of the film. I am glad that it did go out in cinemas though.

Rated 9/10, Graded A, by yours truely. Probably will be the best film I have seen in a while. Seems low budget, yet it is not something you would say “It’s just a show”.

Thanks Kenneth for the recommendation. And to my movie companion heh heh… And….I think Leo’s really cute! Leo’s the person who’s interested in Tobi, the co main lead.

At last most of my busy busy days are over. I need a break. Finally!

Exams are over. Don’t ask me how it went though. With all the work that comes nonstop from camp I can’t even prepare my studies in peace. And people around me aren’t helping me either. People who insult me. Insult me by proving my foresight in some people are getting short sighted.

And you know what. I could have had a huge quarrel over this matter with my partner. But I decided to keep mum. I hope it is appreciated.

I guess I am just gonna be in a bad mood for a while. Just as well. I will need that angst to put my energy to work in the gym soon. Regain my title back in the gym and get back what I have lost.

To all the suckers out there, GOD BLESS YOU!

To the rest, thank you for everything.

Do ya thing Lindsay Lohan. Sing that song!

*extends both middle fingers up in the air and storms off*

Oh yes… must give credit to their coach too… couldn’t have done it without his help..

I was just chatting with a fren of mine at the meet earlier. He has the same view as someone I know. That watching movies is an anti-social activity. You sit there for 2 hours looking at the screen and not catching up with one another. I guess its true but I like my movies too, whichever way I get it.

What do movie goers and non movie goers have to say to the above?

Tectonics! You guys rock my world! At least for now. I am very proud of all of you. All the hard work paid off. I seriously hope it was something you would carry with you in your mind for a long long time..

I will share pictures, as soon as they become available. Very proud of the official tectonic jersey outfit too. And yes…tectonics is my cheerleading squad, trained to compete in just 3 weeks. It is kinda saddening that a squad would be assembled with much difficulty, taught the stunts and dances, only to be disbanded soon enough. But I am kinda used to it. Just another squad. Such is life sometimes. Being able to take something up, and let it go as well. But it is certainly something I will take out of my NS life with pleasure. All the stuff I have done, isn’t an everyday thing for most NSFs. Ah well.

Tectonics! Once again. You should be proud of yourselves. Indeed I am very proud of your achievements.

But while I am very happy with my squad, I am yet very disappointed with someone else I know. I simply cannot understand the way he processes things and the rationale behind his actions, when it is quite clear on what he needs to do, yet decides to take the dumbest path. A path that will create more problems in time. You gave up a friendship over what someone else said. I don’t know why you are so intimidated by the nonsense. But since the frienship seems to mean this little to you, I’ll let it be. Indeed I am angry. But as soon as I finish writing all these, I am going to forget a lot of things. And I don’t want to be reminded of them anymore. It is your choice. Not mine. Not to say I agree with it, but I will accept it. I’m just amazed how wrong I was (correction : Is) of you.

And for those of you I have chatted at one point in time or another about partners and soulmates. Indeed till you find that soulmate of yours, I think it is best you keep some stuff that people don’t need to know to yourself. Unless you have nothing better to do and wanna find extra things to do or talk about. Less is best .Remember this quote of mighty mark’s.

Last paper tomorrow. Have I studied? No. Am I tired? Yes. How am I gonna study? I don’t know. All I do know is I am going to devote most of my time in May to those times before I went for BMT. Tough, intensive training. Use up the fats I have stored over the past year or two and get back the lean mass I lost during BMT. It is gonna be an interesting May. Turning back to physical training. Especially since the last time I did that, was to cure a heartbreak.

Shawn and Wenhui. I salute you two. Aboo my squad captain, you provide very good leadership qualities. You will do well in the future. William, wenfeng, chun kit, kit leng, hope you guys have developed more muscles? heh heh..good work done! Na’Im, you impress me with your attitude. Hope you’ll remember Tectonics for a long way to go. Sudnam though you were arrowed to join and probably till today would rather not be in the squad, I commend you for your spirit and guts to go that high up in the air. Suhaimi/Tsunami, I like your pits! *L* Damm joker you. Couldn’t have done a lot without you as well. Kerby/Ho Choi please for goodness sake, get something positive out of your NS life. Else the 2 years will just be wasted. And mind you it is just 2 years. Many of your seniors do 2.4, or 2.5 years. To the other squad members, Fauzi and all, thank you for the memories.

As my tour of national duty comes to an end, the notion in my head is “Happy to go but sad to leave.” And the day is approaching..just 50+ more days..

Oh yes, happy birthday Wen Feng!!

Two movie reviews to share :

Guess who – A story with more than just a touch of ‘Meet the parents’. It’s almost deja vu. The same father-in-law to be from hell. The same show down between the two men. The same eventual outcome. I thought the plot was pretty good if it weren’t the fact that it followed Meet The Parents so closely. A nice heartwarming story that’s good for any saturday morning. But if you can wait, go get the DVD. Catch it sometime anyway.

The interpreter – Starring Nichole Kidman, the show is about her overhearing a possible assassination over a notorious president. The whole show had a touch of politics which I really dread but a pretty good thriller so to speak. The sort that I like. The pace that I like. No unexpected twists in this one, but has the plot building up as the story develops. I don’t think anyone would fall asleep on this one, so go for it!

Up next? Summer storm ,at the recommendation of a friend of mine. Any other shows to recommend guys?

It will have to wait before I step into a cinema again. Exams on Mon and Wed..hah hopefully I’d be okay. I’m kinda red from the sun so it is a good time to take a rest and STUDY.

Enjoy the weekend folks!

Wet dreams was what I watched earlier. Not as comical as sex is zero, which was hillarious. Don’t expect too much out of the movie as the story has a typical life of a teenager feel to it. If you want a good laugh I think the eye 10 does a better job at it.

Will a student-teacher relationship work in this flik? Watch to find out.

As for the casino issue, I expected this outcome. If ‘boss’ says we will have a casino, we will. Period. That is how influencial he is. I stand on neutral ground, neither for it or against it. For one, I don’t gamble in casinos.

Couple points to note though. We are talking about Integrated Resorts (IR) instead of just a casino. The casino is supposedly gonna take up 3-5% of the total land area of the IR. Singaporeans have had many avenues of gambling. From soccer to casinos. Star cruise wouldn’t be so popular if it weren’t for the casino build on board. In fact the whole ship is like an IR on its own. And that’s what we want. Over all the economic aspect of having IRs outweigh the ’social ills’ aspect of it. I don’t understand why the latter has so much hype about it. Religion aside, I don’t see why a casino can be that ‘bad’. As I have said, we have had our exposures already. The government cannot shelter us and lock us in a locked room forever. Ultimately, let the people decide on what is important and what they want as individuals.

Sentosa is said to be one of the sites for the IR. Well the island is pretty much dead, despite the increase in beach goers. The new IR should perk things up a little bit but people like me who love the peace and scerenity sentosa offers, I suppose we stand to lose all that. More flora will be affected. More cars will be going in and out. Soon sentosa would be like orchard road on a weekend. Where finance is concerned, it bids well though. I reckon.

Let’s be the adults we are and decide for ourselves instead of looking to the government as parents forever. End of the day if the GPD and employment rate increases ,I think we should accept it as something positive and move on.

I don’t really want Singapore to be rememebered as a place for casinos and gambling. I am very proud of the clean and green thing. In radio, sex sells. Hate to talk bout it, but listeners want to hear bout it. So what do stations do?

The bottom line is, for radio people, listenership and ratings make all the difference. Let’s cut the government some slack, and be the adults that we are supposed to be!

Okay once and for all. Cuz I had too many messages asking me bout my exams, I couldn’t keep up. Rach sis this is for you too! Sorry I gotta go to bed soon.

Anyway most of you were lucky to have asked me hours later. To a few pour souls like bobee, my dear and wenfeng, tney bore the brunt of my vomit. I cursed swore and whatever like the end of the world.

How did the exam go? Good and bad. Good. Cuz they bloody hell copied questions from past year paper. Word for word, number for number. All 5 questions! I had to flip and take a look at the cover page to make sure I had the right paper!

So what’s bad? All 5 I did not attempt. Cuz they were too hard. Arrgh

It is like buying 4d to have your numbers srambled and you wished you bought system entry.

But thanks to bobee, I might pull through after all. He taught me some stuff. Lotsa stuff. But an accounting paper is always weird without a question on balance sheets. Don’t you agree?

It is over. And I seriously hope it is done for good. Crossing all10 fingers. And toes. Next paper is on next mon and wed. And I still have training and a competition to fulfil. ARRRGH.

God help my soul.

Gotta head to bed. Thanks all for your concern and messages sorry I couldn’t keep up with them all.

Rach sis I luv ya! I hope you are better. Talk to you soon okay. Remember what I said….

It is just another manic monday!

With a nuclear bomb in my head ticking away…

*boom!*

I’m quite disappointed with someone. Someone who would say “i’ll sue the bars off the asshole” as a figure of speech. I figured he was rather different from the rest. From ‘the’ rest. But I suppose we have our differences in opinions, but a difference I think I won’t be able to handle. Plus, in my opinion and gut feel, it is gonna lead to a mess. With one or more people one day. And no its not bout sex with that one or more people. It’s relationship wise.

Anyway I should be meeting bobee shortly for some tutoring. Decided to give up on the topic of depreciation. Focus on financial ratios and analysis, T accounts and trial balances, break even analysis..NPV..

Why does it sound like an awful lot still, for 3 questions. *sigh*

Hopefully I will pull through this. I am not even aiming to score an A cuz that is pretty hard considering what I had for my assignment. You can say I ‘pang seh’ this subject but I still need to clear it.

I had a good workout at the gym yesterday. Very hyped up and all. Apart from the music I listened en route, I think it had a lot to do with my dear. Thank you wormie for what you did for me…:)

Okay back to my studies.. *whips myself*