Life For Rent

Oh what a day it has been yesterday. Went down to NUM. Twice to see ya guy.. hah hah. Once during lunch and another after dinner. I’ve finally gotten a shirt from them! Would have gotten another one if it weren’t for the color combi but for now I have a grey tee with a pink neckline that says Cock Teaser! Rach got it for me, how sweet can that be yar? I am still waiting for my rainbow dog to come in and when it does I am so gonna get it.

Dinner was at Billy Bommers at Marina Sq. Somehow the chocolate malt and the burgers didn’t taste that right. Don’t know why but its darn filling goodness. Rach and I aint feeling too well today, oh no. Think perhaps we are overworked. She is for sure, waking up real early in the day (or rather, morning!) and stuff. Aiyah she needs someone nice to take care of her lah. Any good guys out there? Must audition first okay *L*

The weekend is finally here. I sure hope I recover in time for some good gym time tomorrow and a wild night out heh heh.

Speaking of wild, I’ve recently began to talk to someone I immensely detested in the past 2 years or so. I guess one could put it all behind and just get on with life. No point bearing a grudge and all. I never had anything personal against him, though I didn’t appreciate what he did back then one bit. It was so wrong but what’s done is done, and he admits he was bad and yeh, what’s past is past. A new beginning to all. Maybe he aint as bad as I thought him to be. Shall see.

I’m gonna be a sweetie and help one of my gal friends settle her networking problem on Sunday. Poor thing, had so much problems with the routers and modems and wireless and pcs and laptops, quote unquote so I figured it would be nice to just settle it for her once and for all. I know how frustrating it can be to have the comps systems not working up to one’s expectations. Why pay for something which you can’t use, for whatever reason? Makes sense.

Still owe lobby a meatball lunch. This and that, that and this. So many things so little time. I need my rest and get well. Shant allow it to ruin my weekend!

The sun is out! It’s time to roll in the hay and make merry. Enjoy everyone! As we count down to v-day real soon

Ok people who have been around me know what a crazy fan I am of Madonna’s Sorry, taken off the album Confessions on A Dance Floor. The first album I have bought in eons in fact. I flitched a remix of that song from someone and its amazing! It is the PSB remix to the song by the way. Those who like Sorry, let me know!

The CD single is due to be out late Feb, FYI.

Let’s see what’s to look forward to. Meatballs with lobby on Sat? If I can even wake up. hah hah. I have been missing my pilates of late darn. Gotta plan with one of the trainers again. Thinking of taking it up proper with my mom. Shall wait for the next intake I reckon.

I have been getting ‘kisses’ from someone whom I least expect would do so. Wonder what his intention is. Shall find out hah hah.

Anyway today I thought for a while and I realised, that one of the best decisions of my life was made late last year. It’s proven that I was kinda right all along, but yeh, it’s mighty mark and his gut. Uncanny relationship between the two.

Oh hang on. I just got a msg on my msn. A long time friend whom I have never really got to keep in touch. Was from my BMT coy and he’s quite cute. And he happens to be someone Rach n I have been talking about cuz he works at NUM, one of the cute dudes yeh! I won’t say who lah. And don’t ask me if he falls under my jurisdiction or Rach’s. But he’s someone really cute!

I am in shock!! I GOTTA GO..

To be continued..

Have I ever complained of the kind of emails and messages strangers send in forums and other portals alike? Like pick up lines, some are just darn annoying. The good thing bout it all is that I just gotta hit the delete button. In real life, that may not be so easy.

Here’s a lil sample that someone sent me that I kinda like :

Harwo Mighty Mark,
hehe… we’ve been exchanging kisses for awhile and I tot I’ll take the bold first step and ask to be friends with the mighty one. I think U’re cute and so I sent U kisses as little greetings to wish U good health daily. I mean no harm and no ulterior motives, just like to get to know U and perhaps get to hang out with U… I’d love to meet up with U some day, over coffee or even a meal. But for now, I’ll just let U get comfortable with me by exchanging emails or chatting via msn, [person's msn addreess]… Hope to hear from U soon. Meanwhile, do take good care of urself.
c”,)- [person's name]

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I like the straightforward, modest yet non-pushy nature of the message.

Moving along, I was like looking at a thread along the lines of “Asians only have a premium for a short time” as compared to caucasians and all.

The whole thread wasn’t about that particular concept but rather people worrying how it will be like when they are 50 and all. For me I kinda wanna live for the moment and not worry over something that I may never encounter. How do I know I will definitely live to see the day I turn 50 anyway? Worrying too much bout something in the future causes me to lose focus on what my life is all about now. And once I lose that time, it will never return. I don’t wanna spend half my life worrying what am I gonna do when I am 50, and when I do reach there assuming, will I still be as clueless as the others? If so aint that 25 years of ‘preperation’ gone straight down the drain to hell?

Live for the moment. Especially relationships. How certain is one that it will last a looong looong time. Hardly certain. Such is my attitude. The phrase of the day is, live for the moment!

Such a ZZzzZZ monday for me. Not 100% cured of hang over, couldn’t sleep the night before, and I had lessons at night. Gosh.

But I have a new intern from NTU. He’s not bad looking. I think Rach will like how he looks. A pretty nice fella too. And yes I reckon he falls under Rach’s ‘jurisdiction’ heh heh…

What a night of clubbing yesterday. Think my sms bill is gonna sky rocket but yeh I had different groups here and there. Quite a few of them I haven’t met before but in a quest for good clubbing kakis, and all for the name of fun we decided to go together.

Destination : Happy/MOX/Why not

Why not was having the blow party, 20 for guys and 25 for ladies to get in. They tossed free condoms n lubricant too. Wow. But it all began at happy. Rach sis, Ant and Willie all could go in free so we did and since it was still 1-1 while waiting for the others to call me, i challenged Rach to down the jugs of vodka ribena. She couldn’t finish hers so i finished hers for her. Almost 2 jugs full. Ya think I’m mad at the way I drink? I think so too.

2 jugs, one house pour, and 2 mouthfuls of hard liquor. The hard liquor did it for me. I was staggering and clinging onto xavy for dear life. He is such a dear, to stay around to make sure I was okay. Thanks to Jack also who made sure I made it to the cab in one piece. Alvin for bringing the dudes in. Desmond and Simon sorry for pang sehin you all at happy. Was in no condition to make it there alone liao.. haha.

It was fun. But not too cool I was soo pissed drunk, came back, puked, stripped all clothes off and just went to bed. Couldn’t make it to shower and all. I hope it doesn’t happen again.. It is an experience, not quite something I am proud of though.

Watched “In her shoes” today, in my hangover and moody state. It wasn’t really bad but it was too serious for my mood then. Maybe Rach can give her reviews on it. For me in short, I would say it is worth catching, but not worth 9.50. We have the lead actresses grappling with their issues. One who feels she is ugly and all, the other who covers her ‘disability’ with her attitudes in life and the failure to keep a job for long. But all’s well that ends well. The scene where Simon and Rose made out on the sofa. She turned off the lights, he turned it back on. She turned it off again and he turned it back on. It seems like she feels she is so ugly, she doesn’t wanna let him see her up close. On the other hand, he disagrees to that thought and I thought it was very sweet of him. That perhaps she aint the prettiest in the land, but it was the insides of her that mattered to him. It was her, that he fell in love with from day 1. Not a pretty face.

I shall end the post here and head to bed soon. You guys have a great week ahead. Suddenly I’ve become a tad uncertain and fearful of school and work. It is quite stressful coping with it and all. Clubbing and all gives me something to look forward to. But being pissed drunk aint gonna help, yup I know that

Let’s hang on together and brace ourselves for another week ahead.

Oh yeh this is for a good fren of mine. He is able to provide airfares cheaper than zuji.com, so he says. If you guys wanna travel by air or something I can refer you to him. He is trustworthy, endorsed by mighty mark so quality is assured. For those who know me, you would know whatever mark endorses are good stuff

It appears that virologists have noted a gene mutation in the bird flu virus in Turkey. It seems that the virus is mutating to bind itself to the human cell more easily than to birds. At this stage they are unsure if it is an important mutation but I think it is the virus’ first step in a bid to survive. It this this frail yet resilient trait of viruses that interests me in virology. We adapt to changes in order to survive. We evolve over time. Genes mutate. What is the common factor among them all? Where does the instinct to survive originate from?

Read that PM Lee sent his son off to NS at Pulau Tekong. A writer to the forums noted how humble it was all being done. I only have one thought in mind. A golden horse has landed.

First of all let me do something. Folks cover your ears first.

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!

Sorry… that was from work ending at 4am earlier today. Such a demanding customer. But you know what, I don’t blame him from a business point of view. Bosses have to be stingy and nasty and squeeze every drop of blood for all it’s worth. His job is to earn money and keep profits up. I have learnt from people around me, what makes a good business man and who’s better off being employed.

I was gonna have dinner/supper with someone but i had tokeep dragging dragging cuz I didn’t know what time it will end and it sure ended late till I guess he got tired and went to bed

Perhaps it was not to be. I don’t know. Not fated to meet for dinner.

Okay I got a reply from a ‘kenny’ on my friendster. Turns out I PM the wrong kenny! Geez, with all the intimate details on that very night I went clubbing with Rohai’s friends. Gosh. I’m totally embarrassed! But I got the right kenny eventually. He aint no photos up so don’t ask. He figured he doesn’t look good in photos haha that’s fine. Mark doesn’t really bother, a face helps put an identity on that’s all. People tend to remember a face better than a name, especially newly met ones. Aint very particular anyway bout it all.

Work is on. School’s in. And the assignments that are due in like 12 weeks are scarying the hell outta me. So much to do. But it is expected at this level I am, but doing all of it while working professionally is quite hard. You gotta try to see how it is like, not easy. Especially with someone like me who doesn’t believe in going for an exam without the intention to score as high as possible. I can be very hard on myself, but of late I have learnt to play hard too.

I have yet to find the right balance in life. Trying to though. Pilates to sooth and calm. Weights to vent it all out. Clubbing for the music. Being with the good people around, balancing negativity with a lil positivity. I try. It aint perfect but I try. A while back I said a routine check by this dodgy lil screening said I had a stressed heart. I know I aint as physically fit as before, and perhaps I was at my last paper just before going for the screening. I was literally jumping around in a very good mood and maybe it resulted in a false positive. Regardless of it all it is no excuse to allow anything to overwhelm. The word is balance, and that’s what I am trying to put right.

Sorry you had to read my yada yada. Still stonned from yesterday’s long proceedures at work. The sun is out finally! Beach, anyone?

Let’s get straight to the story, there is this group of very adorable children, around 10 or so, playing on the railway that is in use. There is a signboard set up nearby as warning, but kids being kids, they didn’t care much. At the other side, there is this ugly and slightly retarded kid, playing alone on the railway that had been unused for a long time.

Imagine you are the captain of the train. You see this two groups of children, imagine you have no time to warn the children, imagine (yes yes! imagine! use your imagination!) you have enough time to quickly make a choice to continue moving the train along the planed rail and kill all the 10 adorable kids, or switch to the other unused rail and kill the ugly and anti-social child to save the majority.

What will you do?

I would have just used basic instinct. Whichever group I see first, I would avoid. 10 fellas are easier to observe than 1, so what are the odds. I don’t know. But I truly feel I would avoid whichever group I see first. Critical decision, not much time to think one bit.

Here are some replies given by forumers as extracted :

“Some people will tell me: KILL THAT UGLY BASTARD for god’s sake. You are reliving him of his ugly life.

Some people will tell me: Of course you save the majority.

Others say: Who says majority should win?

The reply from the author?

“Of course, I suppose most will find it very logical to assume its a smart choice to sacrifice one for the sake of ten. Especially if we are sacrificing somebody who is….well…. you know…. its a worthy sacrifice. In reality, the conventional choice is rather clear.

But have you realised, that, this ugly retarded boy, listened to his mother, that he is not supposed to play on the rail that is in use. He obediently did what was right, but he was penalised, because 10 adorable kids got too smart and broke the rules, knowing that they are not suppposed to play there, despite the warning signboards being erected, they still did. And just to save the majority, the one guy who had been trying very hard to follow the rules and try to do the right thing, had to be sacrificed? You may have said he died for a good cause, but is the cause really good enough to justify his death? You weigh and decide.

By the way, either track you choose, you will still be screwed….. and all because these bloody kids chose to play on railway tracks.”

My reply?

“agree it is a lose lose situation. as u pointed out, life isnt fair. maybe i didnt read carefully but i failed to realise the ugly boy was playing off a live track. didnt read bout the mother telling him either. but its still a lil silly. shouldnt be there at all, live or dormant track. the weirdest things happen.

in the scenario given, if i were the train driver, i wont have time for all that. its still an instinct to avoid whatever i see first. like on the roads, i avoid an animal on the road and swerve and whatever happens thereafter was never planned. just like life itself, was never planned. i didnt plan to be born did i.

dont agree with relieving the ugly boy of his ‘ugly life’. its a veri egoistic view. after all who are we to judge ‘ u r ugly and u shd not be among the living’ or something along that line. black or white, yellow or albino, we all didnt choose to be born in the form we are in. and that i feel made us all equal.

what i can agree on is regardless of what we do, right or wrong, we can still be screwed. therefore, why bother what’s right and wrong “

Yes., the right and wrong thing can be found under my intro somewhere in this blog. Might put it up under me myself and I as well. That’s basically how I see it.

What would you do?

Mighty mark has 3 words to say. 3 words to declare.

I give up.

Nuff said.