Life For Rent

Share this chinese song with you all. I thought it is quite a good songg. And it comes from someone who doesn’t listen to those. Me!

Sweet and cute guys in there too. Or should I say, love is sweet. And cute.

At least I would to believe so. It depicts how I would like it to be. Whether it is possible. Does it even exist and all.. I shall leave it as that.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8p269Rp3qxA&search=2moro

I reckon I shall leave mainstream music to the index page of the site and I will stream non mainstream ones here. The autoplay will not be enabled so you will need to scroll down to click on the player right at the bottom. I will feature tracks from Sarah Brightman, Midori, Enya, and some little well known tracks shared with me by Phonenyx ‘chip chip’ Ben.

To kick things off I will feature Shanon. It is a celtic name I believe and it has very few instruments in the piece. Mostly flutes, which has a very therapeutic tinge of emotions.

Someone asked me what my stable will be like. I don’t really know. I guess I leave a lot to my partner hah hah. I like zen and simple styles, nothing too sophisicated. But I want a room, sound proof, fitted with good speakers, amps, lights, and my DJ console! 2 turntables for ‘guest’ djs though I mostly use CDRs. A reasonable mixer and we’re good to go!

And it is monday shortly. Exam week for me. But nonetheless, the joke of the week is darn good to start the week don’t you think?

Here are a couple corny ones that I love. Courtesy of my dance diva, ian!

Question: “Why did the skeleton cross the road?”
Answer : “To get to the Body Shop”

Q. What’s a virgin and a balloon have in common ?
A. All it takes is one prick and its all over.

And Ian’s favourite..

Q. Why is it difficult to find men who are sensitive, caring, and good looking?
A. They already have boyfriends.

Q. How can you tell a tough lesbian bar?
A. Even the pool table has no balls.

Laugh away people and have a good week ahead!

Just one last thing to add, Ben said I should be more sensitive to how people feel. Ironically, it is the overwhelming sensitivity that led to the lack of sensitivity.

How queer. So which am I? Sensitive? Or insensitive? Or both? Or neither?

I treat people the way I would wanna be treated. I had this all in my head all along. Treat people how you would like to be treated. Suddenly, it seems to be going the wrong way.

I joked with a fren today bout him going to church tomorrow and him repenting all the notti things he had done. He said he usually doesn’t regret anything he has done. All he has done is by choice and all. Well he regretted two things, and the two things to me are minute things. If those are worth regretting, I am sure there are TONNES of other things he would be regretting. But I didn’t pursue much.

But it did remind me of stuff of my own. I have said it many times and all already. Matter of fact I have lined up activities before I go to UK, in case I don’t make it back in one piece. *L* I know it is silly. But who knows? I have nothing unsaid or undone. Supposedly. Even Princess Rach knows what to do with my assets and where I want my ashes to be. The one and only person I would have regretted leaving behind is my grandma. Someone who brought me up, understands me very well and stuff. We share mutual respect and you know, I have so much to say to her. As time goes by it seems harder and harder. It has been bugging me for the longest time indeed. How weird it is if I have to tell Princess Rach what is in my head but I can’t tell the person. Why? Tell me why?

Someone once asked me. Am I someone who likes attention. I didn’t know how to answer him. He is a good friend of mine and he probably witness some stuff that made him wonder. I though bout it for a while. Do I like attention. Sure I do. I like attention from my frens and I like to give attention to them too. But I don’t like public attention. When I go clubbing I am usually at my table, or go visiting my friends’ table when I know they are there. I rejected modelling cuz I don’t like the attention. I rejected TV for the same reason. I loved radio for a while because of the ‘privacy’ but even then I rejected it eventually.

And then another good friend of mine, Ben, and Karen were down at the clubs with me on Thurs. So was Malcom. Ben told me how he felt bout something that was going on and it dawned on me that I had some issues to address.

Side tracking a litle, another friend of mine admitted to me how he felt towards me and what made him feel that way. I would like to thank the person, you know who you are, cause it was something I never realised. This was how it went for that case. It was him me and a few other frens meeting together for the first time in the club. Karen my good gal fren was there too. One of the guys got very drunk by the multiple drinks he had from his boss who was there incidentally. I could see it coming already, looking at the number of glasses he gulped. True enough he got pissed drunk soon after. I shooed the boss away to stop him from feeding this poor guy more drinks. I then fed the poor dude water and ribena to sober him up a little then pulled him up to dance with me so he won’t fall asleep. The guy who admitted he was fond of me said that initially when he saw me, he went ‘oh okay. cute guy.’ and that was it. But when he saw all the attention I gave to the poor dude, he sorta felt quite touched. And it went on from there.

And I guess similar stuff happened as well. On Thurs. Ben chided me. Saying I should not give people the wrong idea. I went, “what is wrong with taking care of people? That’s how I am, protective of my frens and making sure they are fine especially in the club.” The point Ben made was, they don’t know me very well. They could easily misinterpret it that I am fond of them. To begin with, they were already fond of me, that’s why they hang around me. And I whinned, why is it so hard to get friends. Everyone seems to wanna date you but you can’t make friends easily. If I leave people alone, it is so unlike of me. If I give them attention, I give them the wrong idea. *sigh*

And Ben said “because they are there to look for boyfriends!” and I thought bout it for a while and I guess it is true. Marcus first said it, and he is right all along. Maybe he has the same problem as I do. Everyone wants to date him, but no one seems to wanna be friends. It is so hard to find friends!

I guess they are all right. I may tend to show more attention that the average person. Even someone closer to me once had the wrong idea.

Let me justify it all once and for all. Yes, I am someone who takes care of people. It is undeniable. Especially in a complex environment like the club. But anywhere else, I would also do my best to take care of them.

But I CAN also turn my back and remain nonchalant when I don’t fancy someone. So why all the attention? It is cause I love them. I love Princess Rach. I love my friends. I don’t want anything bad to happen to them. For those whom are not within the ‘friends’ category yet, perhaps I am fond of them. I may have figured well they are nice, let’s see how it goes. So I let them in a little closer. In the past I might have allowed them even further, but today I am more wary and it takes a lot to blow me off my feet I admit. I am trying, yet it isn’t working.

There are so many people around me who are nice. Really nice. Partner material most definitely. But when it comes to my armour, all are unable to penetrate through. The one or two I have liked before, are not for me to take. But it is good it went that way. Why so, I shall not elaborate too much.

I wanna say, if I have hurt any of you, it was unintentional. In my whole life, I walked out on one person who tried to date me and I felt the person really deserved it. But it is not something I will bitch about it online. If there is a chance and we do a cuppa, maybe I will tell ya. For the rest of you, on one hand I would say, I am always open to anything. If things develop, then so it shall. Who knows when, who knows how. Right? Perhaps I am not ready for love. Perhaps this perhaps that.

I dunno what will happen in future. If being open to everyone somehow makes them hurt, then I rather not and hire ‘bodyguards’ so no one even gets to come near my armour. I am not perfect. I am not that great. I am human like everyone else. Who would love to love and be loved. I never meant any harm or meant to hurt anyone. I try to do all I can for my friends, especially when it seems sometimes doing all for a partner is not half as worth.

My point is, you treat me well, I will treat you doubly well. Be nasty to me and I will remember… I always remember what people say. I have a poor memory for a lot of things, but I do remember what people say. You have probably realised it by now if you have spoken to me

Ian, my dance diva faces the exact same problem. Maybe this is what that bound us together. We have so many things in common. From what clubbing does, and how he treats people. I think he is a little more extreme than I am but you know, my friends mean a lot to me. I didn’t know by being the way I am would hurt some of them. I do apologise. It pains me to have to consiously make the effort ‘not to go overboard’ with my friendliness. It does. What do I do? Just sit there and pretend I didn’t see anything? Or just walk off. I don’t know.

I need to find my way around this. But at least I know this flaw. Knowing it, is half the battle won. Thank you all for being honest with me. My friends indeed. I love you all. *hug*

Here’s a bit of absolutely useless info I picked off a forum.

During the early hours of May 4th, it will be 01:02:03 on 04-05-06!

All I know is elections are speculated to be held around then and I wonder if it is gonna be a messy affair if it overlaps my absence here.

Oh my. What a ‘recovery party’ it was yesterday. Recovery party on a Fri when things have barely begun? Well, normally yes. But Thurs was such a hot night in the clubs all the way to 4. Gawd it was fun. I decided to head back down yesterday and Ian, my dance diva was there! So there you go, a recovery on a friday!

I can’t wait till next Saturday when DJs Jansen and Ronnie takes over the decks for a flantalicious diva show! I would probably be a little unfamiliar but the era is one of those I was in so I should catch up soon enough, I guess!

I am gonna share one of my tavourite chill out club t unes with you.I have 6 tracks to this track but I am gonna feature the radio edit, which is also the shortest anyway. It is an MP4 track, made a little mistake during encoding when I ripped it off the cd single but if you have any problems running, let me know!

And here’s how it goes!

I hate the treadmill everyday
I hate the mundane things they say
the boredom sets in 9 to 5
at night that’s when i come alive

I long to be connected
I long to be affected
the bright lights beckon me
beckon me to you

[Chorus]
I like it when we go to extremes
I like it when you enter my dreams
I like it when i feel your touch
I like it.. I like it so much
I like it when we’re one on one
I like it when we come undone
I like it when we go to extremes
so let me, let me live my dreams

Went shopping today during lunch with my cute intern. I have my new iPod nano! Bought a brand new one from one of my customer.

Decided to get a small retractable mouse for my laptop, a laptop bag, a new set of earphones, and a case for my nano, all for over 128 bucks worth! Phew. Am I ready to travel or what.

If you ever see me on the roads with earphones on and I didn’t wave back, pls do not be offended cuz I am usually lost in my own world of music when I’m out and about

I am a happy prince today. And tomorrow it is time to party!

Dance! Do u wanna dance? Come on take a chance. Baby why’d dance?

Club line-up

Happy
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Thurs : Princess Ann
Fri : Princess Ann
Sat : George Leong
Sun : George Leong

Next week :
Wed – Piano night feat Dim Sum Dolly Emma Yong and John Lee

Why Not
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Thurs :
Fri :
Sat :

Does it matter which day? It is the same lousy DJ. And Sat with SGboy Prom. EWWWW.

Next week :
Fri : Attention party : Disney theme
Sat : Recovery party featuring DJ Jansen and DJ Ronnie. With Prince Charles Ming in attendence for support! yay!

I have in my possession that belongs to someone technically. It was given to me. And I kept it. I pretended I had it no more, but I kept it.

Very soon, it will have a new owner.

And I shall have a new toy.

Going out without music is like going out without wearing clothes. I feel weird!

Ouch. Darn ulcer in my mouth.

Dinner at Hanabi with Sir Jeff and Jasmine was nice. It is so nice to catch up once again. Hanabi seemed to have lowered their prices. Lunch is now 28+++ Dinner is 30+++. Wow.

Let’s compare Hanabi VS Ikoi.

Price : Hanabi
Ambience : Hanabi
Sashimi : Ikoi. (hanabi lacks in quality still)
Variety : Hanabi. But it is a close tie between the two really.
Quality of dishes other than Sashimi : Ikoi
Presentation : Hanabi
Service : Both has its good and bads. Mostly fairly good at both sides.
Complimentary dishes : Hanabi (Salmon/Sword fish belly)
Initial impression : Hanabi wins with their greeting upon stepping in, while Ikoi is usually flocked with customers and the staff are too busy and stressed to notice people who walk in even. Noted is that the visit today’s on a Monday, VS a weekend which is when I usually visit Ikoi. But I’d say, being busy is not a perfect excuse for a lack of service at all. If one compromises on service due to an overcrowding, it defeats the whole purpose of it all. Take in what you can and treat every customer as a VIP. Don’t be greedy. Ikoi is forever understaffed and extremely stressed and chaotic.

Final Verdict :

Hanabi : 7/10
Ikoi : 7.5/10

I have to declare that I have not been to Ikoi for months, so I am benchmarking Ikoi’s standards back then with the visit to Hanabi today.

Ikoi earns the .5 extra due to its fresh sashimi. Prince CharlesMing made Ikoi his resident sashimi dining venue a long time ago and it looks like till something better sprouts out, it looks set to stay.