The surreal reality
Mar 31, 2008 in My Shout Outs
Woke up today and found myself on my own bed. No buzzing from the industrial fan. No noisy birds. No sun shining down onto me. It felt so surreal. Am I really back yet? It sunk in after a while. After 16 days of holiday, routine somewhat sets in. Images of the past 16 days flashed through my mind. It appears as if while my physical shell is back here, my soul was left behind somewhat.
That’s the one thing I hate bout holidays. This is the longest holiday of my life yet, with the earlier record at 9 days when I used to travel with my dad on the SIN-TYO-LAX sectors. The post holiday blues that hit me can get quite bad. Ideally, a way to curb that is to plan for the next one. But it does seem the next one is gonna be quite a while away so I guess I gota focus on other stuff.
It is never easy to say good bye. A quick one could possibly be the least painful. As we departed from Perth and on ascend and we flew over the brewery, swan river and where we stayed, I couldn’t help but felt reality hitting. It was a pretty picture as we flew out of Perth and towards the sea. My greatest thanks goes to princess rach and amy for housing us. Thank you all for the wonderful memories that I’ll be keeping with me. It was a home away from home indeed. Sorry for getting everyone fat. Thanks for taking us to the airport. For the Chai Latte. Thanks to Tina too for picking us up. It felt like yesterday when we arrived in Perth, hungry. The pizza and kebab we had. Thanks for lending us the bed too. Perhaps when one is on vacation, he enjoys the time away from home and work and what nots. But perhaps what the vacation really gives is the wonderful memories that will be etched so deeply within. The same memories that makes saying goodbye so difficult especially when you’ve bunked in with great hosts as compared to hotels and all. It is so hard to believe that it is all over. Yet I must. We all have to carry on with our lives. When we went to Rottness Island and chatted with a fellow tourist, I think she said it best though she probably never realised it. Why do we work so hard for? So we can afford great holidays like these. I used to feel, heck, if I didn’t have to work so hard I won’t be so stress and need such vacations do I? Yet life will be meaningless without the memories. Additionally, how much can it mean if I could just reach out my hand and get my travels all paid for just like that? I can see why some prefer frequent short trips. Cheaper. A good getaway yet without major ‘heartbreak’. It all makes sense to me. Yet I do not like to rush through my vacation. So what do I do? I haven’t quite decided yet.
As for you Amy, although you’ve never really said anything, I could tell the tough times you are going through and the dilemma set within at the moment. Unfortunately many a time, we cannot get what we wish for. Sometimes it is a lose-lose situation. To give up something in order to achieve another. Many times we also know what we need to do, but what we decide to do may not go in sync with it. In a way, one could say, it is not easy to be you. I have to agree. On the other hand, it is not easy to be someone else too. We may not like to be ourselves, but by switching roles it may not necessarily be any better. It might be different, but not necessarily any better. The fact is we don’t get what we want all the time. For the good of ourselves long term, we may need to make very difficult decisions. These take time. And I tell those around me, when you have made that decision, to not turn back. Never look back, only forward. Even if it was a wrong decision, there is no point looking back. When I do stocks trading, hindsight is always perfect. If I could reverse time and reverse my trades I would have been a millionaire now. And so will everyone else. What happens forward is what that will count. Hope your foot gets better soon! Don’t eat so much maggi sauce and rice la. While it is nice, not nutritious lei. And it is a lousy way of losing weight. None of us are skinny model look-alikes but perhaps that is the beauty of it all. That we are all equal in everyway. Live n look like how the characters in Devil Wears Prada? No thank you. I still love my food. So what if I’m fat and don’t carry a drop dead gorgeous bod. So be it. Life is too short to torture oneself. I have a saying that goes “Don’t pet the sweaty things and don’t sweat the petty things’. I think you do that quite well and it shows. Congrats on your graduation! Enjoy the convocation! You deserve it.
Reality always bites. I reckon most of us are used to it by now. I love u all! Thanks girls for the many memories once again. How do I go on from here? I don’t know. But I know I must. And I will.
