Life For Rent

It was a simple, yet quiet day leading into my first little anniversary with my love. While the day was quiet (though noisy at times) I reckon it meant quite a bit to my love that I was there dining with friends. It was a tad daunting cause of the number of people and the noise. It’s all good actually but I just need to get used to it slowly. JP understands that and is supportive of me and I know he is just happy how it all went. I trust I will get better with time. We will, get better with time. What meant a lot to me was the little talk we had in the car before I drove off. At one point he was almost ready to burst into tears (or so it seems to me) but we talked, sorted out some stuff, reassured some others and it was very important to me as we headed into our first little anniversary together. I am really looking to break out into the big 3rd anniversary which is one of the biggest fear that I might fail in. JP means a lot to me… I know he could do so much for us but sometimes he just doesn’t know how to. I can feel the frustration and I blame myself for it too for being impatient with him at times. It’s something that I realised today, that over everything else and my little overrreactions, that I have been impatient. That, hurt us both at times. I do not have the world to offer to him, but whatever I have I want to share. It is also with a committment that I put in place, that I will want to see it through.

I am a cheeky silly billy (goat). I am also in love with someone who has a different background from me but shares the same goal in live, in love, and in the heart. I have my flaws, but I will work on it. I have big dreams (though it may seem a tad too big so early in a relationship to some, but I thank them for their views too) cause it takes really hard for me to envision a future with someone. Now that I have, I want to work towads the common dream that we have. I cannot do anything to time, or how things may turn out eventually (the not so good ones) but I know as much as I have at most 1/2 the ‘decisive power’, I want to take this risk. I asked myself way before I entered this relationship that if it doesn’t work out, would it all have been worth it? The answer is yes. Am I happy? I am happy that I’ve met JP somehow, and I’d like a steady burning coal-like relationship. While we have had our misses, the fact that he didn’t run away nor did I turn my back on the whole thing and walk in the other direction shows just how much we mean to each other. We are just two humans, like everyone else in search of love. Wouldn’t the folks around us be happy for us?

Let’s keep it simple, keep it sweet. Keep it happy without a weap.

I was driving home and one of the songs that I love came up and it struck me that it was what I had wanted to say. I wanna be my dear’s guide and light. There’s so much to say and I have always been impatient bout it cause I don’t know if I somehow may never get to say it and I will regret it somehow… Specially for my dear, here it is-

I changed one word in the whole lyrics.. does anyone know what word it is?

Stevie B Because I Love you Lyrics:
I got your letter
From the postman just the other day
So I decided to write you this song
Just to let you know
Exactly the way I feel
To let you know my love’s for real

Because I love you
And I’ll do anything
I’ll give you my heart, my everything
Because I love you
I’ll be right by your side
To be your light, to be your guide
If you should feel
That I don’t really care
And that you’re starting to lose ground
Just let me reassure you
That you can count on me
And that I’ll always be around

Because I love you
My heart’s an open door
Boy, won’t you please come on in
Because I love you
I’ll be right by your side
To be your light, to be your guide
Because I love you
I’ll be right by your side
To be your light, to be your guide

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