Life For Rent

I’m quite tired of counting beans and trying to put thoughts across but each time I do it becomes a quarrel. I reckon sometimes maybe, less is best. The less one says the better. As much as I try to prevent a quarrel it always ends up that way. I tried to learn to be more communicative but perhaps it is just not for the better. There are loads whom I can chat (but unfortunately did not as much as I could after devoting much attention towards an unappreciative entity) without ending in a fight which is really the last thing I need after a long day at work. It is not something I would rather spend time on contrary to what some may think. I should marvel our uncanny ability to start one after finishing whatever is left for the day and allocate the remaining time for quarrels.If I wanted to count beans, there are loads I wanna do too but put off too cause I thought it didn’t and shouldn’t matter as much. I have learnt, the key word here is ‘thought’. Assume and it makes an ass of u and me.

On a lighter note, things are heating up with my hdb purchase. The first appointment and subsequent hunting for ideas and furniture. Rach and I have somewhat of an idea on what to do which we will probably run through during the CNY period. Oh wait, most shops are closed right? That’s fine, I will manage the whole project anyhows to the way I can. First major project. Daunting yet exciting! Can’t wait!

I will also be looking at the insurance mei mei has and re-evaluate if it is feasible for me to up some portions of my policy, probably in critical illness and a term insurance to cover and protect my income earning years. I have accquired a skill to hedge against job loss and it is something I can do as long as my brains and eyes are working but let’s see how I can further hedge against such a risk in a reasonable manner.  I promised to get it done this week and I will.

I’m chatting with Vic on the other window and he asked if I have any travel plans. Gee… you know it is like dangling a carrot in front of a hungry bunny! To think he is thinking of heading to Japan! *grumbles* I think one should be planned, so the appropriate budget can be set aside for it. I shall try not to illtreat myself too much. Perhaps a compromise for somewhere regional would be alright. Bali? Batam?I’ve got the links from mei mei!

I will chart the progress of my house acquisition from day 1 till move in day and subsequently the days thereafter. Think it will be easier to add a new category. Not quite sure how it works but it is easier to reference all posts in the category one shot?

Have a good remaining week everyone!

Am I happy in the relationship?

Can I provide the other party what he/she needs? Can the other party provide what I need in a relationship?

Are the goals in life similar? It does not have to be identical. This will test both party’s ability to communicate and meet halfway. It will come back to point 1. Will you be happy doing so? Sacrifices are not sacrifices to a willing party. I know I will go many extra miles for the person I love willingly cause I want to. I won’t get weary of it, cause it would never have been seen as a sacrifice. Do you end up counting beans? ie, do you list what you did for the person and argue who put in more?

Is the person happy with me?

One would be surprised with the answers sometimes. You’ll think you’re doing a fine job, but surprise surprise, the truth may be quite the opposite.

All of that, aside from the big question of love. There is usually no question bout how one feels towards the other.

 Is love enough? Sometimes, it just isn’t.

I agree with my dear, everyone wants a car. I do too. It is convenient. It is not a showcase of how successful I am though. I can’t say if I think similarly like the others. My opinion is, a house first, before a car. I want to build a home, a love nest fast so I can share it with the person I love. My sanctuary. My crib. My shag pad. My car will come eventually, but much later..

I ask myself, what would I do if I have 10k to spare. What if I have 100k to spare. The answer is the very similar.. a million bucks however, will have slightly different answers and that is because with that amount I have more ‘buffer’, ie I have more disposable income. My priorities in life changes whether I am single or with someone. That’s cause I want to give him and give us a comfortable home and life. Do I need a home? Yes. Do I need a car? Not really, I’ve sorta travelled ‘chauffer driven’ for the longest time. I want to make money work harder on its own so I can realise the big and small dream.

It bugs me a little when people think I mind certain things bout them. Especially the people I love. Do I appear so superficial? Or perhaps, do I appear to be so different from the rest and view things differently? It kinda worries me here and there cause it makes me wonder if the person I’m with is rather mainstream. It is okay to be so, but not that cool if I carry that misconception from the start. Am I the only person who seems to peg ‘loving someone for who he is’ differently from the rest? I am generally tired of people chasing after looking good just to keep me interested. More often than not, it will make me lose interest instead, as it has in the past. Or did I do something to make the other party have so little faith in me. I too, will get old one day, get uglier one day, look less attractive one day. I can only hope I won’t be thrown out like the bath water one day cause of that.

I adore my mei mei for who she is and how she looks. It don’t matter how she looks or how fat she is. Suffice to say I am not romantically related to her but when it comes to love, I fall in love with a person, an individual, not an outer shell? Physical attributes attract, that is for sure. When it comes to love however, is it not on a separate plane? An attractive person is someone who is comfortable with himself or herself. That does not imply the person cannot dislike certain areas. I don’t like some parts of myself either, but I’m somewhat comfortable with myself for this is who I really am. The in and out of me.

I can never fall in love with a perfect body.  However, I can fall in love with the perfect someone within an imperfect body in an imperfect world.

I love you dear. I have asked the same questions I posted, among many more before I set out a committment. I can only hope.

The chub club decided to do something healthy this time round to get rid of the weight after a whole year of eating and what better way than to do the 9km walk! We took the route from the canopy walk through the henderson wave till the end at the marang trail (harbourfront). I got conned and got lead down pepys road onto pasir panjang road instead! grrr.. there goes the hortpark walk but I will do that all over again soon!

And what better way to end the day than to have a nice steamboat, ku lou yok, tou fu and vege @ the Hong Kong Fish steamboat place off New Bridge Road? Solid! The chub club being greedy chubs had to dig into the nutella tart from Everything With Fries @ Katong. As how a colleague put it, there goes all the hard work. OH WELL! The chub club lives for anotherday yet!

Am i happy or am I not? I know I am unhappy cause even a movie is subject to my wallet’s approval let alone dining drinking vacations. It is causing my mood to yo-yo like the wind. I don’t like it. I know I can achieve the desired amount saved but I aint sure if I will be happy with the price to pay. As for those who have been spending n going for this n that and then complain you got no money for this and that, screw you. There are many who are bearing the weight of your insensitive behaviour and you do not have any right to complain bout being broke from spending on grossly obnoxious stuff.

I have loads of pictures for posting, so little time to post though but I’ll try! Nice housewarming by Dr Crys, thanks for the hospitality! The food is soooo goood (Which NTUC is it again I Wanna buy from there!) and the soup was omg, simply terrific! I wish I had the stomach to take it all in but at least I couldn’t anymore

It was REALLY good! I can’t remember the chilli and balachan paste used but damn, they are far better than anything I have tried la! Even for someone like me who doesn’t dip his food into ANY sauce (other than sashimi in soyu) I dipped my meat balls in it. U can see it from one of the pictures! Sedap!

I will be posting the other events, soon.