The First ID Consultation
For the uninitiated, ID = Interior Designer.
I cannot fault the designer for giving me something rather mainstream cause i did not give much info upfront before the appointment, so a redo of the floor plan will be done. They had a few areas well thought of but it’s a flat and I would expect them to have a good idea on how to solve the problematic areas. That is what they are hired for.
I have also decided who takes which room and I now know what I wanted for the bathroom is not feasible. We will have to contend with 1 WC and 1 bathroom. We could however break the wall in between, extend it out and possibly put a sink on the outside. I wonder how it can be done due to the washing machine and stuff that is gonna be there but the designer said ‘leave it to him’. I shall see.
Was on leave today so went shopping. I’m gonna leave the joint bank account aside for now, KIV indefinitely. What’s meant to be will be, what’s not meant will not be. I know a lot of people will disagree and fight for what one thinks he or she wants. I was once like that, but decided to adopt a ‘fate and destiny’ style to manage expectations and disappointment.
I am still gonna source out IDs and will work on some issues between the seller and HDB prior to completion date.
Was out on a shopping spree but wasn’t much in the mood for it for various reasons. Saw little that interest me. The one or two that did was on sleepwear but the price was not right. I did get to try on the mattress that I want to purchase soon and I got the confirmation that I needed, that I should get it. Tangs is having its 12% off this week and the whole world seems to know, except me. I used to get smses and all from citibank I presume, but did not get any anymore. Thank goodness Rach told me.. the timing is somewhat wrong but whether I buy them this week or not, I will leave it to fate again. If I get my credit card limit review done in time, and to the amount I need I will go and buy. After all I am buying 3 sealys mattresses. They will eat up a lot of my credit limit.
Jayme thinks it is my niao period when I said I did not get anything. Whole day out and got nothing, she said. I said yeh I didn’t get to see what I wanted and even if I did the price wasn’t right. In the past, I wouldn’t go home without buying something. It would make me extremely annoyed in a sense. It also means I would just pay the price that they are asking for. No longer.. I am stingy with money for a few reasons. To the point I asked if I was getting miserable. Thankfully no not yet. I knew if I did see something I really wanted I would. JP got a pair of jeans from his fav brand and I reckon after trying it out, it was a good buy at just $115. A top he wanted with a hood (i like hoods but think I have outgrew them..?) at $99 was a no go in my opinion. I did try on a shirt from zara that I like and it was on sale but atlas the size doesn’t fit. Too big for me. Once again, it is fate.
I badly want a vacation. A massage. Quite a lot of things. Things that I currently do not have the budget for. Is it painful? Yes. Should I spend before I earn like the past? Maybe. I really wanted to set aside money for bigger stuff though and hence I am holding back a great deal, carefully considering what I buy, where I eat and what I do.Unfortunately I have been rolling back on one of my commitment to stay off something for health and wallet reasons. They do help me to stay awake quite a bit (I am still a little backward in resolving my mini insomia) and it allows me time to take a step back, and regroup and recollect.
I am planning a trip for July during my birthday week. I intended to set aside an amount for it but I do really wonder when the time comes, will there be a budget set aside early enough for it? It will take quite a few months to do so and it is already February.
Perhaps I will adopt the whatever should happen will happen attitude to it. I figure I will survive somehow. It will be tough, outflow being more than inflow (other than my waist which unfortunately is the other way round) but I hope in good time when I settle down in my little crib it will get better. It is a huge step for me, and other than Rach I don’t reckon anyone else seems to understand the significance. It is a crib built for myself primarily, but also for people who are close to me. Rach will understand, and she deserves every little bit of whatever I can provide.
My thought of the night – Why can’t a romantic relationship seem to forge a stronger bond, than one that is platonic or like how Rach and I are, in nature. I am just thinking bout this in general.. but why it just feels right to co own a place with her (as in co buy a property), but not with a partner? Maybe it is possible. I can’t speak for Rachel for sure but I will just assume what she and I see is similar. That is, that we can’t somehow see that, even in the future. If I could just add 1 emotion to it, it would be that it hurts. If relationships are fragile, then the romance one seems to be the most fragile of the lot? At least, for people like me.
Just the top of my head. I have never heard of a woman divorcing or leaving her man, just cause he grew a pouch. Yet I have seen people who have been in a 8 year relationship, turn their back on each other even after so many years cause one or the other looks older/uglier [fit in any other word]. If I may say, it is quite sad. There is very little to what I can do on my own. What will be, will be.
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